It's supposed to feel this way

2 things come with the package of being human...
You are going to struggle
You are going to make mistakes

You are not going to be perfect. Expect learning curves, especially if you are doing something new in your life, expect messy, celebrate the wins and learn from the not so good, you not at your best, stuff.
It’s supposed to be this way.
Let’s say it again.
It’s supposed to be this way.
#you can’t have a learning curve if you are constantly rejecting learning for trying to hide or shame yourself for not being perfect.
#its supposed to be this way. 
If you want good things you have to accept the full package- they come with challenges, they will stretch you, you will strain in growth to grow and expand strongly.